Sunday, June 27, 2010
Michael Jackson and Lorazapam
Michael Jackson and I have nothing in common but for one thing. We were both prescribed Lorazapam by our doctors. I survived but he died. If his experience is anything like mine with this drug he will have gone through hell in his last days on earth.
Lorazepam is a lethal drug for 3% of population. For those of us who are allergic to it it has the most bizarre and appalling effects that are so unnatural that they are practically indescribable. The most deadly aspect is that Lorazapam is so addictive. For me virtually one or two low dose pills made me an addict. The withdrawal effects are unlivable and the feeling that one gets just before the drug kicks in is unreal. A journey to hell.
I know. I have gone through this through no fault of my own. My GP misdiagnosed Clostridium Difficile as 'grief' and without warning gave me Lorazapam to calm my stomach! It had deadly consequences as I allergic and I became instantly an addict,
Unlike Michael I was able to come off. In fact I was taken off Cold Turkey, a dangerous thing to do but my doctors thought any more Lorazapam would kill me. The withdrawal, which is major lasted nearly seven years, Heroin is a 'dream' to come of compared to a Benzo, for three years my body convulsed every hour. I never slept, could not go out of the house, for a short period had uncontrollable anger and dozens of other symptoms. Over the years the symptoms fade but you are never the same again.
You have to be ultra strong to withstand a Benzodiazepin withdrawal and I was helped by the thousands of people going through the same thing on the Benzo web forums daily. Many die including Michael Jackson.
I blame the medical profession. On the directions that come in the packet it clearly states do not mix Lorazapam with any other drug but doctors still do! It is also addictive so a Benzo patient becomes a nice legal little earner for the GP for life. It is easier to stay on than come off.
My doctor got a medical reprimand. He could have killed me. He was not sympathetic either to the hell he had prescribed for me. He told me to 'Go away'! Or this was the gist of what he said! Not this GP'S finest moment as for once he did not bury his mistake.
Michael I am so sorry this happened to you. Nobody deserves Benzo Hell You would have been a good little boy and obeyed your doctors. This is not a good idea.